Saturday, January 9, 2010

1.09.10 Dear XXX

Dear XXX,

You have made me really sad. No, it wasn’t the 2nd dessert bar you ate, or the not going to the gym for the 3rd day in a row….it was the wish that you wished for when your daughter said that she was wishing on a shooting star tonight. Out of everything in this world, and any wish that you could wish for, you said to yourself (us), “I wish I was skinny”.

What a very empty wish.

I just feel very sad. You are such a “in depth” person but you can be so mindlessly shallow. It’s actually ED who’s making you like that. That’s what ED does to you. He takes a complete whole person and strips them of any dignity. Please stop letting ED treat you like this any longer. You aren’t being fair to me. I do so much for you and instead of wishing on your daughter’s star for happiness, peace, health or love for not only you but for your family, you completely threw away a perfectly good wish. I hear myself shaming you so I am going to quit. I don’t want to hurt you like you hurt me tonight.

Your Body.

1 comment:

  1. This is a beautiful concept...you bring so much insight to the world of Eating Disorders. Best of luck to you on your pursuit of healing, as a counselor I know the road to recovery is only understood by those who have walked it. I pray that God gives you the strength to heal...and to loved the body he has given you. Thanks for your thoughts.

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